Vanity thought #6. Sex.

It’s brutal. The urge is second only to breathing and hunger.

Fortunately, it doesn’t come up as often. Unfortunately, in the meantime it keeps one under the illusion that it has been more or less conquered.

The time frame is interesting here. We certainly have no illusions about our urge to breath. We might seem okay for a second or two, and that is clearly not enough to forget about it.

Same with food and water – we might dismiss the hunger for a few hours, maybe even days, but at no moment we are under the illusion that we are not going to eat again.

With sex it’s different. When I was giving my vows I had no idea what I was getting myself into regarding that fourth principle.

Just to make it worse, some of my friends took a vow of sannyas since then, some have stayed as brahmacharies. I’m saying it’s worse because I see it as doable, and that means I can get under the illusion that I can do it, too, and it makes the inevitable crash so much bitter.

As time goes by I hope I’ll just give up and leave it in Krishna’s hands. I can’t do it myself, no matter how much I try.

In reality, if it wasn’t for Krishna, I couldn’t even finish my daily rounds. He clears up my schedule, He makes sure I wake up on time, he gives my mouth the capacity to chant, the capacity I should not take for granted, I know quite a few people who can’t chant even if they wanted to (well, actually in that case they could, but that’s not the point now).

The point is, the only way to free oneself from attachment to sex is to pray to Krishna.

I don’t know if there’s any benefit in any specific prayers, that might appear as a desire for liberation, but chanting our trusty

Hare Krishna Hare Krishna
Krishna Krishna Hare Hare Hare

Hare Rama Hare Rama
Rama Rama Hare Hare

should do the trick.

Krishna knows our hearts better than us themselves, he’ll remove all the obstacles in due time and in the right order. And He will give us strength to deal with them, too.

I wish He would also gave the intelligence NOT to take credit for his job.

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